the classic wave

College.  There are sooo many people that fill the campus.  And even though we like to pretend that we don't...sometimes you purposefully look into your phone or look the other direction to avoid small-talk with someone you know or once knew.  For the past few weeks, I've tried to promise myself not to commit this social silence.  

Today, however, it backfired.  I was walking to my first class with Kelcy, and I saw a girl that looked identical to this girl named Emily that I knew in high school.  I smiled at her from perhaps 30 feet away, and she looked down and away.  As she came closer, I was still sure it was Emily.  I mean it had to be....it looked just like her.  So here we are, three feet apart, and I wave the biggest wave I've waved in awhile.  And paired with that wave?  A high-pitched, "Hiiiii Emily!!!".  The girl gave me the most awkward smile I've ever seen...but at least she smiled.  

I have no eyes because my eye makeup
looks horrible right now. Shhhh.

I turned to Kelcy.

Me: Oh my gosh...that wasn't Emily was it?

Kelcy: No...hahahaha.  I thought maybe she was a girl in your group.

Me: But she looked just like Emily!

Kelcy: mmmm kind of? That's embarrassing.

Just beware before you speak out.  And more importantly, maybe don't wave so ecstatically when you see someone you think you know.

i like to tumble

I'm over school right now.

So what do I do with my free time instead of studying??

I get a tumblr of course.  

I think you should all make one, and then follow me.

Or just follow me now, because blogger's cool like that and let's you follow tumblrs.

that someone

"Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around.

You tell them things that you've never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. 

You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. 

When something wonderful happens, you can't wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement.  

They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. 

Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. 

There is never any pressure, jealousy, or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around.

You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are.  

The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song, or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever.

Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it's like being young again. 

Colors seem brighter and more brilliant.  Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn't exist at all.

A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day's work and always brings a smile to your face. 

In their presence, there's no need for continuous conversation, but you find you're quite content in just having them nearby.

Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you.

You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do.  

Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind, or even a storm cloud on the horizon.

You open your heart knowing that there's a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible.

You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that's so real it scares you.

You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. 

Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. 

Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life."

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--Bob Marley

reality check

Today it kicked in that I'm really leaving for this summer.  And then leaving some more for the Fall semester.  My work now knows that my last day is April 30.  My mom's looking at booking hotels for May 1st when we go check out the apartment that we want to put a hold on.  It's just coming up so fast.  

I feel like my dad thinks Kelcy and I are going for the wrong reason-- to party, or what not.  But we're going because this summer is a fantastic opportunity for our futures.  Why else would we leave everyone we love and everything we've ever known?  Especially since I'm going to be gone for the whole Fall semester...you would think that I would want to spend as much time as I could at HOME.  But I want to grow--and that's what I'll be doing for the next seven months.  

I'm just going to live the next 29 days or so to the fullest.  I'm nervous, excited, scared, sad, happy, concerned, skeptical, curious, and ecstatic about the next seven months of my life.  I finally feel like I'm becoming me.  By picking myself up from everything I've ever known, all I will have to rely on is who I am.  And I'm confident that Kelcy and I will be just fine.  We can do anything we put our minds to, especially when we're together.

{guest blogging today!}

Hello, lovelies!!

Please, please, please head on over to one of my favorite blogs!

It's called "All Kinds of Complicated" and it's put together by a girl I'm fastly becoming friends with, Kai!

Kelcy and I were both able to do guest posts for her while she was away in San Francisco, so please check it out! And follow her! She's amazing, hilarious, and so beautiful.

time

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"Know what's weird? Day by day, nothing seems to change.  

But pretty soon, everything's different." 

--Bill Watterson

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"For everything there is a season, and a time for very purpose under heaven: 

a time to be born, and a time to die;

 a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted; 

a time to kill, and a time to heal;

 a time to break down, and a time to build up; 

a time to weep, and a time to laugh; 

a time to mourn, and a time to dance;

 a time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; 

a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing; 

a time to seek, and a time to lose;

 a time to keep, and a time to cast away; 

a time to rend, and a time to sew; 

a time to keep silence, and a time to speak; 

a time to love, and a time to hate;

 a time for war and a time for peace."
--Ecclesiastes 3:2

language

It's amazing how some in some languages, one little word can mean so much.  

Like in Portuguese: saudade.

It is a word for a feeling of nostalgic longing for something or someone that one was fond of and which has been lost.  

It often carries a fatalistic tone and a repressed knowledge that the object of longing might never really return. 

 It was once described as "the love that remains"

 or "the love that stays" after someone is gone.

the sniffles

One of the worst feelings I've had this year?  This sickness that I've had since Friday morning.  I guess you could say that I'm spoiled.  Normally, when I have a cold, it can't even really be called a cold.  It's more of an annoyance.  But this time, it hit me hard.  I feel like I've been in bed for the past three days...I even had to call out of work this morning after Kelcy and Paige made me (and I totally thank them for that).  

I'm sitting in my bed right now looking out the window, thinking of all the fun things I could be doing instead of lying in the fetal position.  The only good thing about this whole thing, is that when I do get better, I'm not going to just sit on my bed all day like I normally do.  I'm going to be active.  

That's another thing...I went to the health center today to make sure I didn't have some other sickness that needed taking care of, and they told me that I might have high blood pressure.  They kept saying stuff like, "She's so young, though!"  It looks like I need to exercise more and not eat as much salt (A.K.A. not eat as much Chipotle).  So once I'm better, I'm going to motivate myself to be fit and healthy!!

I know this is an annoyingly long and meaningless post, but for those of you who are interested: I sat across from an Andy Milonakis look-a-like, sound-a-like, and story-a-like. He was so loud and annoying, and I don't know how he was old enough to be at the ASU health center...but the way he interacted with the staff and his stories about his cough and broken thumb were hilarious.